LATELY
Oh gods, where do I start. I think this is the longest month of the entire year. I swear, when you think everything is okay it's only the calm before the storm, gah! Last Wednesday, my
best friend [the only one i've the right mind to call that], met a waiter in a restaurant just outside our town. She was with her sister and when Natalie said she wouldn't mind if he asked for her number, Steph got up and asked for it! I don't know how to convey this, but we are close. More than close. We are both 4ys the elder of our younger siblings, so when we have finished university/college, they were just going in. So left at home alone, for the most part we both didn't have jobs and were 'suffering' together. we saw eachother at least every weekend if not during the week too. and you know, you get used to it after a while, it becomes habit doesn't it. so i get severe depression almost a week before my period. it sucks, but i guess i'm used to it. i don't want to eat, i cant sleep, the thought of food makes me want to heave. i fight with her, and we come on at the same time, so we are on wires with eachother.
anyway; she met this guy. in the restaurant, and i knew from the moment she told me that things would be different. i mean suffering with the amount of anxiety and depression that i do about the time of my period was probably the worst time she could have told me! I swear, i would not even wish what i was feeling these last couple of days on my worst enermy! it would be cruel, beyond cruel. if you can't concentrate on anything; your own room becomes your worst enermy, your house feels like a prison and the one person that you know who will make it better is the one person who caused your suffering in the first place. i was an emotional wreck. after all of the texts that i sent her to say that i was there for her when her parents were going througha rough patch; i sent her one saying i was trying to adjust, but it was hard and i was sorry if i was sour to begin with, but it would take time. she told me that i needed to speak to someone else because she wouldn't always be there. She has said this once before; that was a time taht i would much rather forget than anything else; but its when i need her the most and i HATE how much i put my problems onto her, but there is NO ONE else. i don't trust so easily, i never have and i dont think that i ever will. -sigh-
so i've been here, i have i promise. i just haven't been in the sense that i can't bring myself to let go that letting go allows me to create the worst, dark art that you have never seen from me before. Unfortunately for me, she is my muse, if there was a way it could be human form. after her text about me going to speak to someone else, i sent her a really nasty one back and felt immediately guilty afterwards.
I think this morning I am in accpetance of this matter. She hasn't met up with him yet [i cannot say that im not glad, but im not saying that to her face, it would kill her!], i don't know whats going on, which is weird, I always know... we talk about EVERYTHING together; sparing no details.
But I love her, so so fucking much, so I'm always going to be there for her, no matter how many rocky roads we need to take for her to realise that! I just hope she realises it soon, I'm missing this major thing called 'art'!
RIGHT NOW
So after all of that; I'm so calm that I'm starting to think that what I'm feeling now is the abnormal thing!! I don't get how this is supposed to work; please help!?
I've got this pirate bbq coming up at work!

i have a costume already; its not that great but i'm only going because a friend split up with her bf and doesn't have a partner to go with. Ironically, if one of us didn't work for them, then we wouldn't be allowed to go together... this whole single sex obsession... i'm sick and tired of it!
FUTURE
I'm going on Holiday... I'm actually going further than I've ever been before, and I'm scared of flying! >_< -meep- Alright, so I'm going to Mexico! Yeah, I know... Cancún precisely, for two weeks at the end of July, so if you try to contact me then thats where I am. Just in case; cause i won't have any connection or anything! Arrghhh!!!
ON A FINAL NOTE
Anyone want to talk to me on msn? I get lonely at night now!

I know I'm so typically sad! Please send me a note if you are interested and I'll add you to my msn. Thank you.. xx
KITANII
I realise that I never left anyone any information about Mr. K. So basically, I would love for anyone to attempt him, don't feel obliged, but if you are bored then here are his details and some images of what his markings look like. I had two images of him made in the past, but he has changed quite a bit since then as he now has more markings/more colours. I badly need a character Reference, so if anyone is willing...
name: Kitanii
breed: Criollo
gender Stallion
coat colour: Black Overo
mane & tail colour: Black, w/ some white hairs
hooves: Three Black, One Tan. [right hind]
mane length is really, almost uncontrolably long.
eye colour: icy blue/green
other features: pink nose, dirty old rope tied around his neck and broken/frayed end by his shoulder.
images of his colour/markings/look [link] [mr.k's nose] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link] [link]*the images above are just for colour reference/looks, they are not mine, nor do they belong to me.*
**Kitanii is completely copyrighted to devils-horizon; if I find anyone with this character; I will personally chew your f**king face off! Comprende?previous images done of him:

please ask if you need any more information; I'll try and be as descriptive as possible. and thank you! <33

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[1] Harry Potter and The Philosopher's Stone - read ^^
[2] Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets - weee.. look at me go!
[3] Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban
[4] Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire
[5] Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix
[6] Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince
[7] Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows
[2/22]- - -
1. The Fool [o]
2. The Magus [i]
3. The High Priestess [ii]
4. The Empress [iii]
5. The Emperor [iv]
6. The Hierophant [v]
7. Lovers [vi]
8. The Chariot [vii]
9. Strength [viii]
10. The Hermit [ix]
11. Wheel of Fortune [x]
12. Justice [xi]
13. The Hanged One [xii]
14. Transition [xiii]
15. Temperance [xiv]
16. The Deceiver [xv]
17.
The Tower [
xvi]
18.
The Star [
xvii]
19. The Moon [xviii]
20. The Sun [xix]
21. Judgement [xx]
22. The Universe [xxi]
- fini.