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A couple of days after I wrote my last journal my tablet broke - it seemed that no matter what I did to resolve it, it had zero pen pressure and the cursor would wander (frequently) like a ghost even when I wasn't touching it. I installed new drivers, uninstalled them, uninstalled everything, reinstalled everything... to no avail. Just when I had resigned myself to no artwork for quite some time (possibly never again (as I had tried another tablet (work one) in place of mine and that too had issues) my computer rejected a perfectly good tablet, who's to say it wouldn't reject any others I tried to install?!), a frantic session of uninstalling, anything that may have impacted it in such a way, insued... I plugged the tablet back in and without any effort it worked (without the updated driver (I'm still convinced that was the culprit all along!)) and I spent the entire night till the early hours of the next morning painting a tiger.
My point is.... that when faced with the really real situation of possibly never being able to make art again I realised what I do have, in art, in friends, in inspiration and kind, so so kind people who I barely know and some who I've known for years. I doubted myself because I lived up to the expectations more and more. Everytime I submitted a piece of work I relied on good press, I craved the favs and comments like they were a drug and that I would only be "good enough" if I got a lot of them. I feel ashamed that I was drawn into the popularity contest that only keeps getting harder day by day.
No amount of words, gestures or heartfelt thank you's could thank the following people enough for their kindness;
cevourii
Charlie--X
Aeirmid
bunnandcott
CoolCurry
kaons
Deltapotamus
Tolandiel-Roquen
ChikaZuri
Sparia
Lunarlueur
wandernovi
MissMalefic
fillyrox
AmandaDrage
MizzCarnage
christi-chan
SilverSummerSong
arrsistable
I've read all of your comments, in fact I read them over and over in the last couple of weeks, I'm sorry I've not replied ~ I should have to begin with, and I will in the up and coming days reply to each and every one of you because, if anything, you deserve my respect for giving me some of your time, your advice and your love. You will never know how much I appreciate it
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In other news; I bought a GoPro Hero3+ Black Edition last month; I'm still getting to grips with it, the way it works, the way it fits, how it films, how it takes pictures etc. There's a lot to learn and practise with till I'll be anywhere good enough (NOTHING like a Canon....!!!!) But here's my 1st successfully edited video from this morning's ride out.... (it's best viewed in 720p)
youtu.be/l36-2eDbUd8
My journal is called "save me" purely for this girl here..... You could never imagine the feeling of freedom unless you've ridden and formed a bond with a horse - Megan's known for her ear dancing.... and in the last couple of months, she's been my saving grace <3
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Mortal Instruments FanFiction...
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Iceland: 3rd - 11th March (2017!)
Howdy!
With hindsight, I probably should have announced this earlier! Alas... I am always late (I was even late coming into this world!) so this is no reason to be any different! 😂
I am flying to Iceland 🇮🇸 in literally a couple of days! I'll be there from the 3rd to 11th March and am staying centrally in Reykjavik. I realise this is super short notice, and whilst I have a few trips booked I am pretty much free for the rest of the week; so if any of you live in vercinity of Reykjavik, let a gal know :) be lovely to meet up for coffee (or hot chocolate!) or a snow photo shoot seeing as that's kinda come on in the last
Things that happened to me in 2016:
Things that happened to me in 2016; the good, the bad and the ugly.
* I made a New Years resolution to lose weight and become fitter; so far I've lost 2 stone.
* I created art. Infrequently. But still created it.
* I bought a Fitbit.
* I reconnected with my birthday twinsie arrsistable (https://www.deviantart.com/arrsistable) - who I am so so so so grateful for, every day ♥️
* I was called a cunt, a whore and a bitch by a work colleague and then blamed for their outburst and cautioned by management.
* I relapsed and I cut myself again.
* I worked for the company for another 3 months after the outburst before my anxiety and depression really took its toll.
* I wrote
legitimately the best travel holiday!!
So I'm writing this real quick whilst I {a} have signal and {b} am not bouncing around on a minibus/in a car/on a boat/plane/or just general walking!!
Yesterday fillyrox (https://www.deviantart.com/fillyrox) and I went on a boat tour to Bruny Island in Tasmania, it was immense, beautiful, smelly (seals), picturesque and fookin' freezing! No wait, that's not an understatement, it really is freezing here; far colder than the UK right now.
I'll get down to the gist of this cause otherwise it could be LOOOONNNNGGGG!! So we're on the bus coming back, bouncy, bouncy and we've asked if we can be dropped off outside our (casino) hotel, walking up the drive all achy breaky cause we wen
leavin' on a jet plane..
24th September - 15th October 2016
Well folks, the time has come for me to fly away again, most of you will know that I am off to the land of Oz to spend some time with family and friends and of course take a much needed holiday especially after these passed couple of months.
I wasn't specific before as I wasn't sure just how specific I could be without getting into hot water. After a very stressful time in the office dealing with workplace bullying and various disgusting and vulgar outbursts by the bully (my boss' daughter) I reached the end of my very short tether and resigned from my current job back in July. I was immediately put onto g
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I'm just glad to see you're back. I've seen too many people give up things they love because they forget who they're doing it for. Thank you for not giving up.